I broke up with my boyfriend who was only with me out of pity or something like that.. plus the fact that he was emotionally abusing me and taking advantage of our relationship. It has been hard to accept that it was the right decision. I can't believe something like this has happened to me- who would have thought that after everything I have been... Read more
Here I am, at work sitting quietly, not doing much. Inside I feel like yelling from my own inability to express or find myself. I wish I could enjoy life like everyone else out there does. What I find is that I just can't do it. I'm not good at anything and thus I find myself stuck in amidst mediocrity. Life controls me, where i used to... Read more
There is a dynamic that occurs when you are healthy and have many friends, but as for myself, I really lost that when I started to develop schizophrenia. That is the one thing I really miss... being able to talk openly, be honest and have fun with good friends. nowadays I have changed. My opinions about life have changed. In a sense, that... Read more
I know I have brought it on myself here, well I think so but to be perfectly honest, recently I have started smoking pot and since stopping, I am suffering. I was only smoking a bit every night because since New Years Eve I was offered some basically, it was so strong that I thought I would die, anyway it is gone now and I don't want anymore. I... Read more
This is my first sharepost in a while, and if you have been reading, I had not seen a pdoc for about 2 years. Well finally yesterday I got to see one, and all is fine. He upped my dosage of prozac and that's all.. my symptoms are really characteristic of depression more than anything else. I just haven't had the motivation to write I... Read more