http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ideas_of_reference
I have been told what it is, and I am aware of the fact that it is just a symptom, but I can't get past the constant ideas of self reference. It feels so real, and the whole experience perpetuates my negative thinking... I think people are "out to get me", and are going out of their way to find out the truth about me, and most of the time I am idiotically succumbing to the distorted self image that I think they think. I am too hell bent on defending myself intrinsically to some invisible power that is tormenting me. I think that the truth is that it really is true. Is this guilt? I don't want to sound so confused about the truth. Would increasing my meds fix this problem? It is too difficult to explain verbally to a doctor because I wish they could see it while it happens. Well my puter needs to be restarted now...
