I feel calm and composed today, though this probably has something to do with it being the start of my monthly cycle. An added complexity to the whole situation, as I get the phenomenon called PMS which severly messes with my thinking and outlook , on top of Schizophrenia. Sometimes I do stupid things, but recently I have realised it is that time of the month. Somewhat. My boyfriend bears the brunt of most of it, poor guy, he is the most understanding person I know. Anyway, I'm just in a good mood.
As I am not seeing a psych that can speak English, I only have my past experiences to tell, so I will tell the story of the time I was prescribed prozac. I had been seeing a psych who didnt put me onto prozac, but I went to a GP one day and told him I had PMS and issues around the period. He prescribed Prozac to me, and I was very surprised, but when I told the Psych he accepted the diagnosis. So, I was originally prescribed Prozac one week in a month, but eventually I took it everyday. Sounds a bit complicated, but I was under the guidance of a good psychiatrist. I had read about issues with Abilify and Prozac but my doctor said it would be fine. so since then, I have been taking Abilify 20mg and Fluoxetine 20 mg nearly every day. No dramas there, I think its all helping, but I am the most out of tune person when it comes to knowing when Im sick- Unless I had the social worker and doctor continually telling me something was wrong I wouldnt have known... Now their words finally ring in my mind, years later though at the time I took my meds basically for just a novelty value and not because I knew I needed help. Schizophrenia though, is a very embarrasing diagnosis, I don't want to tell people about it because they don't know what it is, they'll think Im an axe murderer or something. It is a very touchy issue for me. I'll take my meds and tell my loved ones as I should, though I don't tell eveyone I know, even though I should. I feel embarrassed about it and hate it, plus the religious connotations - to me its like all religious people (basically society) have their own views about schizophrenia and what it is.
Anyway I could go on forever about that so I will stop there.
