I am at home back with my parents. I am at such a crossroad in my life, I can't decide on anything, and I don't know what I want. I wish I knew, or had something I wanted. I told my Boyfriend that I would go back to Japan, but seriously I said that for him. I feel like I am wasting away. I love Australia, but mentally I am arguing that Japan is... Read more
Nothing too dramatic happening at the moment, oh except I will leave Japan to go back to Australia in 10 days. I am excited yet sad to leave. I have been noticing myself being a bit tired recently, but then again I have been drinking more alcohol recently, goodbye parties and the like. It's not like there is no reason for things. I feel like... Read more
honestly I am going through a lot at the moment but I havent got a clue what to write or where to start. I don't know what is happening, I can't say I know. So, I will try to be definite and objective about things. Recently I have made 2 friends online who have Sz. They have helped me a lot with my self esteem and acceptance of my... Read more
I have done some very stupid things in my life, and I have only slightly woken up to those choices, but have I? I continue to do things that are possibly not the " best" option. Recently, I broke up with my boyfriend ( it was his " less than stellar" treatment of me that made me do it. I don't know if it was right or wrong, or if it was my illness... Read more
It has been 6 months now- it seemed like a cruise or magical event at first, and although I still love him, I have noticed the Sz is sucking me dry energy wise and mentally keeps me from enjoying this relationship. I am constantly feeling highly suspicious and jealous. I get so caught up with the feeling that I forget the reality of the situation... Read more