honestly I am going through a lot at the moment but I havent got a clue what to write or where to start. I don't know what is happening, I can't say I know. So, I will try to be definite and objective about things. Recently I have made 2 friends online who have Sz. They have helped me a lot with my self esteem and acceptance of my illness.
But the world seems like a bigger place now, and I feel like a grain of sand amidst it all. I feel distanced from things that once seemed close. Here I go talking in metaphors again. I made a decision to go home and go back to university, but that means leaving my boyfriend. I keep changing my mind every day. People , like my family, are telling me to move on. I want to , but can't. This is serious. It is just too easy to burn bridges,and disconnect, but I finally see the hurt that causes. not just to others. I constantly feel self doubt about my ability to succeed in a new life. I constantly feel un satisfied, yet I think that might be my own doing, it is a problem of mine. I should just be satisfied...
Anyway, I'l keep searching for the light, I know things will change soon.
