que sera sera

I broke up with my boyfriend who was only with me out of pity or something like that.. plus the fact that he was emotionally abusing me and taking advantage of our relationship. It has been hard to accept that it was the right decision. I can't believe something like this has happened to me- who would have thought that after everything I have been through that something else would happen. My depression has been worse in the last couple of weeks, so I increased my meds a bit, as my pdoc has said in the past that it would be fine. I want my depression to be over quickly, but I fear it will take time. Things aren't too good at the moment because i came to this foreign land for someone, who is now out of my life. I don't have a support network at all... I feel terrible at the moment.....listening to music helps a lot as not only can I relate to it, it kind of blocks out the internal voices and self doubts. I have found a new inspiration in writing and telling my story to others, so watch out for more of my blogs online.