Been feeling a little withdrawn, and noticing that my passive- aggressive side is taking right over my life. For example, my roomate and her friend were sitting in her room all night laughing and talking ( about me?) , while I just sat in my room fuming and basically silently yelling out. I wonder, can they hear me?
What's more is that I have been developing a kind of narcolepsy which needs to be treated. I thought it was the meds, but I havent taken any in a few weeks now and it's is still as bad as ever. I need to get that under control too. I have an appointment with the sleep clinic next week.
Now it's November, which means there are 4 months until I return to Australia for good. I will be in a much better situation with medical treatment there. And I will be able to pursue my dreams of having a proper career and home. Japan has been good. But also like being in a vortex.
I am happier now though than I have been, and my illness is much more under control than before. Maybe I am getting better, who knows?
The site www.schizophrenia.com has bloggers listed in the lower left hand corner of the home page -- look under Wagblog by Pamela Wagner. She talks about her own narcolepsy and schizophrenia. You might have already read her blogs -- they are always interesting and well-written. She will write back to her if you comment on one of her blogs. She's the one who has the twin sister who is a psychiatrist. They have come out with a book or two on their experiences together. Anyway, maybe she could help in the are of narcolepsy.
I used to sleep 14-16 hrs when I was taking 40mg of Zyprexa. Fortunately I am on 15mg right now and no longer have that problem. I sleep about 8-10 hrs and maybe a 30-min nap in the afternoon.
Best wishes to you,
Carolyn