Information and opinions on Schizophrenia from MyAnimus at SchizophreniaConnection.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581 http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581 http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/48278/home-sweet Tue, 11 Nov 2008 10:12:25 -0000 MyAnimus I am at home back with my parents. I am at such a crossroad in my life, I can't decide on anything, and I don't know what I want. I wish I knew, or had something I wanted. I told my Boyfriend that I would go back to Japan, but seriously I said that for him. I feel like I am wasting away. I love Australia, but mentally I am arguing that Japan is better for me. I don't know why, but I think its because of my boyfriend. Anyway. I am enjoying my... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/48278/home-sweet http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/46490/words-reason Mon, 27 Oct 2008 22:39:15 -0000 MyAnimus Nothing too dramatic happening at the moment, oh except I will leave Japan to go back to Australia in 10 days. I am excited yet sad to leave. I have been noticing myself being a bit tired recently, but then again I have been drinking more alcohol recently, goodbye parties and the like. It's not like there is no reason for things.  I feel like there just isn't much to write about, although my days are busier than ever. I can't think of... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/46490/words-reason http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/43052/blankness Wed, 01 Oct 2008 11:23:44 -0000 MyAnimus honestly I am going through a lot at the moment but I havent got a clue what to write or where to start. I don't know what is happening, I can't say I know. So,  I will try to be definite and objective about things. Recently I have made 2 friends online who have Sz. They have helped me a lot with my self esteem and acceptance of my illness. But the world seems like a bigger place now, and I feel like a grain of sand amidst it all. I feel... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/43052/blankness http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/41899/choices Tue, 23 Sep 2008 03:50:37 -0000 MyAnimus I have done some very stupid things in my life, and I have only slightly woken up to those choices, but have I? I continue to do things that are possibly not the " best" option. Recently, I broke up with my boyfriend ( it was his " less than stellar" treatment of me that made me do it. I don't know if it was right or wrong, or if it was my illness being exacerbated... I'll never know   I also have decided to return to Australia in a month... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/41899/choices http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/40634/confronting Fri, 12 Sep 2008 15:32:50 -0000 MyAnimus It has been 6 months now- it seemed like a cruise or magical event at first, and although I still love him, I have noticed the Sz is sucking me dry energy wise and mentally keeps me from enjoying this relationship. I am constantly feeling highly suspicious and jealous. I get so caught up with the feeling that I forget the reality of the situation and about my feelings for him. I feel very emotionless also, just deeply upset yet unable to cry. If... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/40634/confronting http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/40635/confronting Fri, 12 Sep 2008 15:32:50 -0000 MyAnimus It has been 6 months now- it seemed like a cruise or magical event at first, and although I still love him, I have noticed the Sz is sucking me dry energy wise and mentally keeps me from enjoying this relationship. I am constantly feeling highly suspicious and jealous. I get so caught up with the feeling that I forget the reality of the situation and about my feelings for him. I feel very emotionless also, just deeply upset yet unable to cry. If... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/40635/confronting http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/39287/procrastina Tue, 02 Sep 2008 06:40:56 -0000 MyAnimus I am a big procrastinator , I always have been. I have the best interests at heart though, I'm not a slacker. I don't know why, but I believe that motivation plays a big part in what I do. plans don't seem to motivate me at all, but I hate being late for someone. I often wish I had a study partner, which would motivate me to turn up for meetings and then I would actually study. I remind myself this is for my own future, but often I just want to... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/39287/procrastina http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/38545/calm-finally Tue, 26 Aug 2008 16:37:14 -0000 MyAnimus I feel calm and composed today, though this probably has something to do with it being the start of my monthly cycle. An added complexity to the whole situation, as I get the phenomenon called PMS which severly messes with my thinking and outlook , on top of Schizophrenia. Sometimes I do stupid things, but recently I have realised it is that time of the month. Somewhat. My boyfriend bears the brunt of most of it, poor guy, he is the most... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/38545/calm-finally http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/38268/type Sun, 24 Aug 2008 08:21:38 -0000 MyAnimus Firstly, I have been noticing more posts on the site recently and I think it's really good to see more people posting and sharing. I'm glad there are people out there. Anyway, my topic today is the various types of Schizophrenia. I have never been given a classification so I want to find out what type I am, I just got given the diagnosis " schizophrenia"- thats it, but everyone else seems to be either paranoid type or something like that. I... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/38268/type http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/37842/living Wed, 20 Aug 2008 04:30:49 -0000 MyAnimus the past week has been pretty awful, I feel like people are out to get me in a way. usually one person in particular, but how can someone affect me when they aren`t even there? This is my perpetual world of unreason... believing that I can hear people talking to me when they probably aren`t.  yet i continue to fight for the truth, even though its stupid.  Lucky I am back at work to take my mind off things, it isnt too much of a... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70581/37842/living