I play solitaire a lot. Nobody gets where I"m coming from, but the cards do.
The cards are a sure thing, they aren't going to frighten me or let me down.
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Playing solitaire
Claudia Krizay
Tuesday, June 24, 2008 at 09:12 PMre: re: Playing solitaire
Claudia Krizay
Tuesday, June 24, 2008 at 09:28 PMI do understand. i am running scared. I can't even be on the elevator with someone else because I feel threatened. The person might talk to me and get inside my head. I just can't deal with that. My computer doesn't play mind games. I am okay with myself when the voices don't want me dead or to harm myself. Right now my medicine seems to be working and I am alright. i hope it stays that way. I don't want another hospitalization. I have just had the fourth in a year. i just want everything to remain constant and I just want to keep feeling safe. I notice youhave on your profile a picture of a cat. I like cats too. I have always had luck with cats. They are loving and non threatening. not like people who I in general cannot trust because they are noisy and nosy. Claudia
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feeling safe and sound
Chris
Monday, August 11, 2008 at 04:45 AMHello 'Loscha',
I hope you don't mind me writing.Your posts ,as well as bravely sharing your personal pain and distress,which sounds so unbearable, are indeed helpful and valuable:
Please know that. Thank you.
You and others are helping me (and others I am sure) to try to know a little of where 'those living with it' are coming from as you put it, and link across without 'sending messages that are received as threatening.
My son has at yet untreated paranoid schizophrenia.His safe and healthy release at the moment is with quad biking. It is heartwarming to see, when sadly so often he feels danger around himfor himself or us, his family.
Was interested to read about your solitaire being a big comfort for you.That is very good.Also Claudia feeling safe at her computer.
Everyone needs a safe haven, a nest. and it sounds as though you need a warm hug, no noisy or nosy words.
Best wishes and a very gentle hug and stroke,
from
Chris ,
mother in UK
PS I am just reading a beautiful book called The Centre Cannot Hold by Elyn R Saks.
sub title 'a memoir of my schizoprhenia'. It is moving and inspiring and offers hope.
She also had profound feelings of worthlessness.
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I understand perfectly. I am always on my computer. I have a good relationship with my PC. My PC won't hurt me either- or let me down. Like your cards, my PC won't frighten me or let me down. my PC is a sure thing and doesn't frighten me- I also feel that no one knows where I am coming from. But my PC is true to me. Claudia
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