I get tired of my head hurting all the time. Things want in, things want out, and I can't sort it all out and it ends up nothing is stored. I think maybe some things get stored, but then the frying wires melt them.
It has been suggested I journal every day so I'm going to try but wonder if I'll remember.
I also get sick of worrying about bills constantly and if we will be able to stay in our home. That is a fact of life, however for the last year it has been much worse because of the economy and my husband is self-employed for 30 years. We've done "okay", but nothing is saved, just lived month to month, year to year...we have a house we inherited up for sale for a year now, lowered the price twice & now it is a real deal of a price, but with the bad economy I don't know if anything will work to sell it...if it sold it would be such a relief and help for our financial situation, you just can't imagine.
I have been praying for it to sell and yesterday I "felt" like God said it would be sold very soon but um.....I have had these feelings in the past where I was so sure, kind of like the people that dare walk the streets with "the world is ending on July 10th" and they're sure of themselves...then the date came and went & nothing happened. So I used to think God was really telling me something, now I don't know and when I feel I don't know I wonder if that is a lack of faith.
My head hurts.
