Information and opinions on Schizophrenia from LostChances at SchizophreniaConnection.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/74979 http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/74979/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/74979 http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/74979/40686/fall-ing Sat, 13 Sep 2008 00:11:54 -0000 LostChances Fall descends upon me as expected every year. Falling every Fall, as expected. The days grow shorter, nightfall descends upon me earlier every day. The dark cloud of sadness and depression and loneliness descends upon me earlier every day. Finding joy in the leaves that fall in splendid color is my daily task. The colors fill me with awe then quickly that morphs into gloom.... What is this, this descent I can rely on as surely as the sun... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/74979/40686/fall-ing http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/74979/37204/head-hurts Thu, 14 Aug 2008 01:13:53 -0000 LostChances I get tired of my head hurting all the time.  Things want in, things want out, and I can't sort it all out and it ends up nothing is stored.  I think maybe some things get stored, but then the frying wires melt them.   It has been suggested I journal every day so I'm going to try but wonder if I'll remember.   I also get sick of worrying about bills constantly and if we will be able to stay in our home.  That is a... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/74979/37204/head-hurts http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/74979/36834/don Mon, 11 Aug 2008 01:35:36 -0000 LostChances Sometimes I find the writings I come across delightful and enchanting, with all the prose and poetry and dancing fairies & glittering tinkerbells  piroueting all over the page.   Other times it makes me angry-do people actually live in that kind of world?   It's certainly an appealing world, but it's not here.   Here is the opposite:  dark, cold, scary, cruel, vicious.   If I leave my house I'm sure to... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/74979/36834/don http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/74979/34477/bugs-life Mon, 21 Jul 2008 01:12:30 -0000 LostChances It feels like bugs are crawling under my skin, all over my body. I get tired of scratching and just let them be. At least it's a sign of life. I just work here, no say, no partnership, no soulmate. Just the door end of a battering ram day after day after day after day after day. Pray for release, help, deliverance..... Nothing. That's how worthless I am:  Nothing. Not sure why I go on day after day, I've never felt this nothing to... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/74979/34477/bugs-life http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/74979/32461/speak Mon, 30 Jun 2008 19:06:53 -0000 LostChances I try to ignore the mutterings but they come back.  I tell them to speak up or get the hell out but neither happens for long.  It pisses me off that I can't tell what they're saying, it's like a room full of party people off in the distance.  I suspect what they're saying but nothing is confirmed.  I tried to have a meeting of the mind, to address them face to face but they just laugh and move to another corner to continue... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/74979/32461/speak http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/74979/31902/solitaire Wed, 25 Jun 2008 00:32:40 -0000 LostChances I play solitaire a lot.  Nobody gets where I"m coming from, but the cards do. The cards are a sure thing, they aren't going to frighten me or let me down. http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/74979/31902/solitaire