I haven't shared for quite some time because I have relapsed into a very vicious pain cycle. Oh well. When I feel like this I beg God to take me. It really isn't living when I am here.
I agreed almost two years ago to have who I thought was a dear friend move into my house. It went pretty well the first year, but this year it has been a trial. She has a very vicious tongue and in spite of living here free of charge, with a free cell phone, she likes to treat me with contempt. Little vicious remarks, picking an argument about stupid stuff, and generally treating me with contempt. Today I observed a guy on tv who I thought was wearing dentures, and I said so. She said no he doesn't...look he's got gaps on the sides...dentures don't have gaps. Silly stuff, constantly. I just feel stupid. She withdraws and generally doesn't act like a friend at all. When I added her line to my phone she said she'd pay the extra line..10.99. Not once! I bailed her out of jail and her son said they'd bring the money that nite, 100...I've never seen it though I have asked many times! Lots of promises, but no action. Oh yeah, when she gets her disability she's going to pay me...false hope, false promise. I think she is sabatouging so she won't have to give me a dime. Oh yeah, every time we clash she gets on the phone to bitch about me... the meal ticket?
I asked her when she was leaving, and she said she wasn't going anywhere. I told her I thought she should. I am tired of having my feelings hurt. She got very angry and told me "I think that's your problem..everybody hurts your feelings." I just said I don't want to hear what you THINK.
So, I am frightened by this. I feel wrong. WHY?
This is for the best. She doesn't intend to pay me back...none of her promises have proven true. She cleans HER room every day, and ignores the rest of the house. She hasn'lt mopped a floor in six months.
Oh well. It's done and I am not going through any more of this. It is best if I live alone. She's not a friend...a friend would care about my feelings, and she doesn't. She is selfish and rude.
So that's it folks...Oh yeah. I have the bestest news. My daughter called and I am going to be a Grandma next year in June. CELEBRATE!!! I want to go the last month and help her. Gotta start saving money NOW. I am so very excited.
With Fondness
tinkerdel
