Expectations

The first of 2009 actually marks the new beginning of my life in reality.  All the men of my past are no longer lingering in my present with dreams for my future.  I don't base my life on the idea that I need the love and approval of a man any more.  There were three men I loved in my life and they are all just memories now.  Finally.  Boundry.

I've spent the last couple weeks caring for my roommate who has had a bad case of pneumonia.  She rebelled and wouldn't listen to a thing I said, so I finally just stopped.  She got well immediately.  I am no longer going to help those who do not help themselves.  Boundry.

After the 28th of February my roommate either donates her share of living expenses or she is OUTTA HERE>boundry for sure!

I am not going to go to Denver to see my Grandchild three months after it is born because my daughter wants to punish me.  I don't care if I never see my x's children again.  I am through begging.  Boundry.

There will be more this year.  I have written some in my journal and I read them every morning to remind myself of the cost of having no boundries.  I have written it so that it shows every price I have paid for my choices and how painful it was.

So, happy new year again.  I am in control of my life with boundries and choice to take care of ME cause no one else is going to.

With love

Dellea