Acceptance is a place of peace. As I have heard so often, "accepting life, on life's terms".
I have rebelled so thoroughly all my life. The "why's" have over loaded my common sense. I just haven't been able to see reality until now. I thought I was powerful. I thought that I would be special and I am not. I have dealt with paranoia, schizophrenia, suicide, alcoholism, and here I am. REAL
I am not a philosopher. It takes a long time for me to put my "think" on abstract notions.
I have asked why to all the physical damage and pain in the last few years. I have refused to accept that this is all the future holds...chronic, and irreversable. This is all well and good if I would follow the thought with ACTION, but I don't and every time I try to the payment is agonizing increasing PAIN.
It is interesting to me that I always had hope when it came to my mental illness. I think of the word HOPE as a copout now. Just a way to rebel again. To change realities circumstances. I ACTED on my mental illness with therapy and medications. I seem to be coping with those illness's. Physical illness is more confusing. My doc has said there is no hope...all he can do is keep me comfortable. What did I expect? Miracles?
I hope that all of you can just see my wheels turning and my post doesn't confuse you as it confuses me? Maybe soon I will post with some clarity. These are the questions.
Thanks for reading.
With love
Dellea
Hello Dellea,
Think there are many strands in your post,so excuse me if I don't read it quite right, but I wanted to comment.
Firstly I would agree ( from personal experience) that acceptance of some 'truths' in old baggage long resisted can sometimes suddenly bring a new peace and 'balance', with a kind of freeing-up/release (even if ever so slight) so a forward move is possible...
I may have misread your later comment but I must say it disturbed me greatly , when you reported your physician's apparent 'life sentence' comment on your ongoing physical condition that you are struggling bravely to live with also.
If it occurred as you reported, that seems outrageous, and unacceptable patient 'care'.
Some doctors do feel 'impotent' if they have no dramatic medical treatment to offer and are 'uncomfortable' with problems that are to be lived with when they feel they have nothing to offer.
Yet,sometimes even small changes or coping strategies, relearning etc make big differences in lives with previous damage to overcome , given motivation and realistic hope.
So, lastly can I just offer this quote , which I have copied down before. Thought it seems appropriate here,with its feeling of slight but gentle optimism,and self determinism
"As for the Future, your task is not to foresee, but to enable it."
St Exupery
Best wishes
Chris
UK (retired doc, non psych)