Information and opinions on Schizophrenia from tinker at SchizophreniaConnection.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686 http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686 http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/50559/spirituality Sat, 29 Nov 2008 16:53:49 -0000 tinker I have a basic faith in something that exists in the realm of the spiritual plane.  Most of the people I know call this spirit their Higher Power.  I don't use that much..I call it God.  My life has been such chaos and pain that my Creation of about thirteen years ago is my rock and comfort.  I call him the Big Guy or God.  Please don't be offended.  I can offend two different types of people with these names.&nbsp... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/50559/spirituality http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/48981/decisions Sun, 16 Nov 2008 20:05:00 -0000 tinker I suddenly realized after the last episode of "FEAR" that I stay on a pretty even keel when I am coasting along with no stressful decisions to make.  I vascillate when there is more than one choice.  I don't know what is best for me because I have no clue what the future will be or is supposed to be.  That's hard, because here at this stage of my life I know the past has been so full of poor choices!  I don't want to repeat... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/48981/decisions http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/48830/moving Sat, 15 Nov 2008 00:34:19 -0000 tinker Dear Friends, There is one asset that I have acquired through the years..I may go down, but I come up very quickly as well.  I want to thank those who wrote to me when I was down.  I followed your suggestions.  The hard part is to MAKE the decision.  Once I do that it is all up hill. I called my Doc and have an Appointment with him this Tuesday. He had offered to prescribe and over-see my medications if I wanted. I... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/48830/moving http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/48236/diagnosis Tue, 11 Nov 2008 00:00:34 -0000 tinker Hello friends.  I may be a total sham here.  I went to my appointment with the psyc today.  I hated it!  She was very kind, but I was on the brink of tears the whole time.  Again I must hash over the past and "understand" why I am the way I am before I am eligable for medications.  I don't want to do it, and I see no benefit...I have been here so many times before! This woman seems to think I am bi-polar. She... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/48236/diagnosis http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/46264/better-thank Sat, 25 Oct 2008 21:55:18 -0000 tinker Hello.  I am better and thank you for all the encouragement and communication.  You help more than you know! The new dosage on the pain meds is miraculous!!!  Hurrrah.  I feel my body as almost normal and that has been a long time coming.  My pain Doc holds off too long in my opinion.  In the past he didn't, so I wonder what changed in the last six months?  I had two urine tests and they were clean, and I... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/46264/better-thank http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/45987/md-referral Thu, 23 Oct 2008 17:33:33 -0000 tinker Hello friends, and thank you for your kind suggestions.  It is helping and I really appreciate it.   I am going to my GP today and among other things will ask for a referral for a Psyc.  He is the ONLY Dr other than the one who did the tests years ago...though I havent told him ALL the truth he knows most.   I am not having a lot of noise in my head at this time, but the paranoia is extremely unmanagable.  My sister... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/45987/md-referral http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/45743/shape-meds Tue, 21 Oct 2008 23:10:46 -0000 tinker It is long past time that I again search my soul and become honest. I am in a world of hurt these days and my disease is running rampant, unchecked and denied. I started taking antidepressants in the 80's for depression, and I also went through a few years of intense therapy with a psyciatrist.  I took some long and confusing paper tests he requested that I take.  I never recieved any idea of the outcome of those tests or even what... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/45743/shape-meds http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/45380/eviction-300 Sun, 19 Oct 2008 01:31:03 -0000 tinker Well, again the law is the most idiotic stupid thing!   I didn't know how to get rid of this problem, so I called the sheriffs dept...they tell me I have to legally evict this freeloader because her legal address is here!  No, it isn't.  To get SS disable she has been claiming to live with her son, and uses THAT as her legal address!  If I have to I will blackmail her. The 16th I gave her a written notice of 30 days to... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/45380/eviction-300 http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/45063/mess Thu, 16 Oct 2008 17:39:33 -0000 tinker I haven't shared for quite some time because I have relapsed into a very vicious pain cycle.  Oh well.  When I feel like this I beg God to take me.  It really isn't living when I am here. I agreed almost two years ago to have who I thought was a dear friend move into my house.  It went pretty well the first year, but this year it has been a trial.  She has a very vicious tongue and in spite of living here free of... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/45063/mess http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/42916/beginnings Tue, 30 Sep 2008 14:28:54 -0000 tinker I've always made poor choices based on my history of loniness and displaced affection.  My HS sweetheard dumped me for a girl he got pregnant twice, so I think somewhere in my psyc I got the idea that sex would reward me and I would get the prize.  It's no suprise when my parents put me up for adoption as a baby and later I was returned to them..suppose I got the idea I was not worthy of true love???  HMM. So.  I married a... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/82686/42916/beginnings