Today, I went back to my pdoc for my every-three-months appointment. For those of you who have read my Shareposts, I was put on Geodon 3 months ago. I took Geodon for 5 weeks and started having mental and physical problems, then it was back on Zyprexa. At first, my quality of life was much improved on Geodon. I had energy, my social life improved, I was not so sleepy and hungry all the time, and I started losing some of the weight that Zyprexa caused. All in all, I was quite pleased with it. Until the sz symptoms began to reappear.
Anyway, I hated that the Geodon had not continued to work. And at my appointment today, my doctor said I had simply not been taking enough of it. He swears he told me to take 2 x 80mg per day, but I know he wrote the prescription for only 1 per day. The upshot of it was that my pdoc took me off of Zyprexa again and put me back on Geodon. How is my poor body going to adjust to all these changes? I don't know. Some people say you should make these changes very slowly. He always just stops whatever I am on and starts the new med.
In a way, this is good news. But still I am a little wary of jumping back on the Geodon again because I am not sure that an increased dose will make things better. And since my mother is having major surgery next week, I don't want to end up in the hospital myself.
I feel all alone in this. My doctor ought to be my partner on this journey. A part of the team. He ought to have told me to come back in one month instead of 3 months to check on my progress. My favorite therapist always stressed the fact that we were both pulling in the same direction. I have no idea where my pdoc is going. I wish I could sit down with him and look at what my goals are and what I would like to achieve in life. Otherwise, how does he know in which direction to proceed? It is as if my one and only goal should be becoming asymptomatic. And that is not true. I have many goals.
I would consider changing pdocs, but I had many more complaints about my 2 previous psychiatrists. Who is to say changing would get me waht I need?
Carolyn
