SEVERE PSYCHOLOGICAL PAIN UNTIL I MADE IT MY SELF,, THIS IS ILLOGICAL I SAID ! IT CAN'T BE HAPINING.BUT ONLY AFTER TEN YEARS OF STRUGGLE LIVING WITH DELUSIONS AND HALLUCINATIONS !!
I BEGAN BUILDING A FRESH SERIOUS PERSONALITY I WENT BACK THE SAME WAY I CAME THROUGH TRYING TO BE AS NORMAL WITH PEOPLE AS I COULD IT TOOK SEVERAL (YEARS) .IT WAS LIKE BEING A BABY AGAIN EXCEPT WITH SOME EXPERIENCE.ALONG THE WAY I TRIED TO CHANGE THE WAY I WAS LIVING OR USED TO BEFORE I HAD THE ILLNESS., I TRIED HONESTY , TRUTHFULNESS, LOVE AND ALL THAT WAS GOOD IN OTHER PEOPLE AND THAT HELPED A LOT .IT IS SOMEHOW INTERESTING TO GO RIGHT AND STRAIGHT AND BE SICK AT THE SAME TIME SEEING HOW TOUGH IT WAS AND HOW HARD FOR OTHERS TO IMMAGINE THE MECHANISM OF ILLNESS. I REALLY WISH I COULD GET IN BETWEEN THE DISEASE AND THE SICK FOR A MINUTE JUST TO SAY LOOK THE OTHER WAY TO SEE REALITY THEY HAVE BEEN DIVERTED FROM AND REVERSE THE PAIN, MANOEUVER DISRUPTIVES AND START THIER LIFIE AGAIN. AND NO MATTER HOW OLD THEY ARE THEY WILL FEEL AS FRESH AS THEY WISHED TO BE .
