The End of the Road

All of the trees along the trail I walk have fallen-

There was a storm last night- I heard the thunder, as

Lightening illuminated the sky- I can see the moon in its fullness now-

But last night God was angry and set the sky afire-

There is somebody alive in the same sky

Who wishes to harm me and in every way do me wrong and evoke tears in my eyes,

To slight me in every way possible, and to

Play games with my thoughts. This evil being is manipulating me,

A devil alive above me and beneath- Rudely laughs as I weep tears of frustration and

I know the trees stuck by lightening shall never be the same again-

The beauty of the woodlands has been destroyed,

All hope for peace inside of my mind has vanished-

Any dreams for happiness- this wicked being has robbed me of-

I have known people with a strong faith in God,

Believing that all misfortunes occur for a reason-

That God loves us all and wants the best for every being-

However I believe that the forces are against me.

I continue my journey along this trail of adversity,

Tripping over a fallen tree quite often-

All I can do is to pick myself up and continue walking, and

I can hear voices inside of my mind saying that

There is no end to this path upon which I walk-

If God so loves us all and if this same God loves me-

Why does he cause me so much pain and suffering every hour of every day?

I still see that fire in the sky and intermittently I wish upon a star,

That these feelings I have are none but delusions and I know

That is what everybody tells me- I know I must think only of the present and

Presently the sky is cloudless and stars are illuminating the evening sky-

As there is an end to every road or pathway- trees have fallen but

New trees shall grow again and shall be stronger and more magnificent.

God was angry and I am angry-God’s wrath has vanished and the

Stars and constellations have returned- and in my heart, soul and mind-

I know that the avenue of pain I walk upon shall also vanish, because

The stars are out and I have wished upon one of these stars and at the end of

This avenue of pain there shall be a rainbow and the sun shall be rising-

There is an end to this avenue of pain just as there is an end to every pathway-

Agony, disappointment and hurt has strengthened me and each time that

I trip over a fallen tree I shall forever remind myself that if God

Did not love and care- I would be lying upon the ground after my fall,

Not standing up again to continue my journey and beholding the multitude of stars, as

I find myself wishing upon the brightest one in this amazing, everlasting universe-

I have left my anger behind me- that devil of my past.

Claudia Krizay