If I die- voices, loss of touch witih reality

I wrote that poem last weekend when I was in a very bad spot.  This weekend I feel better.  I write about death and suicide sometimes but I would never act on those thoughts because I think it would be a selfish thing to do.  no matter how dismal things can appear aat a time, I know that there are people who would be very saddened if I were to end my life.  Soemtimes the illness is so devastating I can't h elp but to just want to end it all.  You know, the voices, the paranoia nad all the stress that comes with it, and those very disdturbing thoughs with the agitation and all.  It helps me to write about it- if I can create somesthing beautiful out of a bad feeling, I gete a sense of accomplishment and it makes me feel better about myself, and not so down on everything.  It is a kind of a catharsis.  I sent you a message earlier today telling you about the publication of my second book, entitled "Far Out".  I am now going to check your blogger and read your poems.  Thtank you for all of your kind words.  Claudia

Hello Claudia,

Of course, I understand.

I am looking to interview four peers over the phone, for a focus group about the coping skills they use when they hear voices.  If you'd like to be a part of that, let me know.  I have one person already signed up, and I'm looking for three more people.  You appear to be proactive, writing poetry and painting, so perhaps you'd like to be included in the "Community Member Forum" I'm going to write about the topic.

You can e-mail me privately about this.

Have a good day,

Chris

I would be happy to be part of the interview, Chris.  I feel honored that you asked me.   I don't have your email address.  If I need to email you abou this in addition to thins repley please give me your email address.  Do you have mine?  Thanks, Claudia.