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Wednesday, December, 03, 2008

A poem called "Denial".

by  Claudia Krizay
Monday, August 18, 2008
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  1. Internal landscape
    Chris
    Monday, August 25, 2008 at 03:16 AM

    That is beautiful ,Claudia! And I loved your picture.

    But what painful nostalgia for the countryside you love and are part of.

    I also feel at one with the countryside and its wildlife,though it is a very different wildness here in Britain. The description of your landscape and its creatures is wonderfully evocative, even if also full of your sadness.Turning 'lost' and 'found' upside down in meaning.... Colours versus stark clinical  bleached whiteness :very thought provoking.

    Thank you for your Sharepost

    Chris,

    UK


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    re: Internal landscape
    Claudia Krizay
    Monday, August 25, 2008 at 06:09 AM

    So glad youenjoyed my poem.

    Actually this poem just got published in an online poetry journal.

    I have another poem I wrote about the woods and wildlife and my love for it.  Here it is:

    I Have Always Loved the Woods

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    The woods have been my sanctuary.

    The rain is coming down hard….

    Hard, as God is screaming angrily,

    Pouring bucketsful of ice to snuff out the fire.

    I weep; for I have always loved the woods.

    All that is left here are fallen trees, and poison oak and poison ivy

    Climbing up any remaining trees.

    Somewhere in the sky, sad angels are crying,

    The souls they are, of those evil ones that passed away and should be

    Burning in hells brushfire.

    There are so many of the evil-dead,

    There was no room for them.

    No one believes in limbo or purgatory –

    Heaven or hell, questionable?

    I have spoken to dying saints, and have

    Walked among the oppressed.

    All my days I have walked with the demons that have

    Made a nest in my mind.

    Once so close to canonization, alas…

    Now I have walked through the woods every morning at daybreak.

    The storm has taken everything back.

    I have always loved these woods,

    How I loved (and still love?) them….

    How I disdain the reality of civilization of which I have

    Always been an outcast?

    I could have been a patron saint.

    I could have been amongst the weeping angels.

    I could have danced with those demons that inhabited my mind.

    I don’ know if there is a limbo or purgatory, although

    The written word proclaims.

    Heaven and hell have seen their better days;

    I am locked with in an iron vault-

    Do I believe…

    I am certain that the universe is a crowded place:

    There is no room for me.

    Fear and mistrust  have overpowered me-

    For that reason I loved those woods.

    Rabbits and deer adored me, and the trees, though fallen

    Once gave me respite from the penetrating,

    Wrathful rays of the sun.

    I wander, looking towards the sky past midnight

    When stars are glimmering so brightly – I look for another world that

    I could adopt as my own,

    Somewhere beyond our universe-

    From this place I have been ostracized.

    I call myself a weeping angel who never found her place-

    I have so loved those woods,

    No longer a place for a crying soul,

    The gates to heaven have been padlocked and keyed-

    The woods have always been my heaven-

    I have always loved those woods,

    How I loved them

    How I shall always love them,

    Always….

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    Woodland
    Chris
    Friday, September 12, 2008 at 02:12 PM

    Hello Claudia,

    Thank you for your reply and lovely poem.

    Inspired by you I will try to post a woodland photo I took in Spring this year on my profile page. Hope you can take a look! It also, like yours, has that lovely gentle dappled pattern of the sun through the leaves.

    Chris

    UK


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