cant think about others now

i was laying a bath full of hot steamy water, listening to my music, the thought popped into my mind that this was my time, time to go, time to die, yes i have been taking my meds, but something led, me to this point in life, where it all seemed worthless, it is my time, i thought of ways to do it, ways i could escape life, flee from my troubles, my pain, i dont have time to think about your feelings, do you think about mine, the pain i go thru everyday, living this life, or do you only think about how you would feel, once its all done and over with, i have no other options, it feels, this is the only way out, to keep living, to keep pushing, to keep fighting, im tired, tired of fighting, pushing, living. but you say i am strong i can keep going on i can do this i can fight through this you see somthing i dont you see a person who is strong we must be looking at two different people

i hear the dog barking it startles me i hear my mothers voice i get out of the hot water to see whos there.....nobody....i guess i have to face another day