doing better

hello all i would first like to thank everyone for all their support you all have made me feel really comfortable here thank you so much

anywho i have not been on my meds for maybe three weeks now and i am doing much better i stopped taking them because i need to feel normal i believe that the pills make me happy not that i want to be sad or depressed i dont but they are making me feel a false happness ya know like when bad stuff happens im like oh its cool but really somewhere deep inside im like oh thats not cool and i just cant get my emotions out

i want to be normal

i want to feel happy when good happens

sad when bad happens

angry when im mad

ect. ya know

but its like with those happy pills they strip me of me and place this fake person instead

i dont know but i feel better now that i am not taking them i dont feel so confined

so please dont worry i am doing good i am learning how to handle real life stress and work through my problems