I journaled earlier this morning but I may have not sent it to the site. I am grieving today. After talking to her father's pastor and then later her father, she told me last night that I was evil and had caused all the torment she has experienced over the last year. She told me that she no longer loved me and wanted me to leave. She said that God would punish me for the terror I put her through. Her family placed most of the blame for her psychotic behavior on me and have been encouraging her to leave me.

I moved out last night. I had hope. She had agreed to try medication after meeting with her therapist tonight. I thought there was a life for us with medication. Now I will never know. I have sacrificed so much to help her the last 3 years and the last year the most demanding, a severe manifestation of paranoid schizophrenia. My heart aches, my dreams shattered.

Social Worker - Marty