As I said, getting caught up.   It's like I've been away or something.     Truth be known I've had a few problems that I didn't expect and didn't have the time or right frame of mind to write here.      

   I've been getting some unexplained paranoia so I've been working closely with my case manager and doctor to try to see what I can do about it.       What we've decided is to overhaul the drug regime I'm on now and see what the result is after that.    If the problem still persists, then we'll go from there.  My psych-doc is a wonderful lady we'll call Jane and she started 2 months ago by putting me on a different form of zyprexa called zydas.        They.re kind of like that chocolate candy; you know - melts in your mouth!        In a couple of weeks she is going to start replacing my seraquel with zeldox.

 Is there anyone out there who  takes Zeldox, and , if you do, could you answer me or send a private message regarding your experience with this drug ?

Any comment would be apreciated.

Then we'll tackle the anti - convulsant and mood stabilizers I take and hopefully come up with a re-vamped drug therapy program that's not going to leave me feeling like a vegetable.

I excited as my old case - manager is coming back after a year of maternity leave.      We have a great working relationship and she is in charge of some affordable housing which I hope to be a part of.      The city is building a bunch of low-income housing apartments, some for the homeless and some for the disabled.     Even though I expect to wait about a year or so it will be worth it on the pocketbook from where I live now.     The boarding home route is not an option for me as I have been in quite a few of them and done well, but I feel that I can sustain myself, for now, at least, in an independent living situation.

Sometimes I feel as though I am becoming psychotic again, but these are only short periods that seem to last an hour or two and are battled effectively with PRN zydas.

Belief in a God that loves me is really the only thing that keeps me going day to day.       As I feel that belief grow stronger, I feally feel that it is all there is that makes life worth living.

Peace

Don Fraser