Howdy folks! Well as my title would suggest, I'm back. I had a bit of a breakdown.
Because my visual hallucinations are triggered by light, the long summer here on the west-coast took it's toll on me and I had a pretty rough time.
At first I didn't notice notice it, you know , just some strange pattern in the trees or something, but after a while I was into a full blown psychosis and had to be hospitalized.
I was only on the ward for 2 weeks. I was lucky. As I got older. the illness was more treatable and I stabilized quickly. It was tough. It's difficult to describe the fear that accompanies visual hallucinations, or at least, the dark ones that I have.
My problem is that I attach names and delusional explanations to the halluc
Now I've got to learn to ignore them all over again.
I have already made some progress. I have PRN's of Seraquel to take and they seem to be effective. But it's like I have to to start all over again with something that took me ten years to accomlish.
Wish me kuck !
Don Fraser
Welcome back Don, and wishing you good luck and increasing strenghth in your progress after your summer roller coaster. Sorry to hear about that. So many things about this illness we just don't know. Those light triggers must hold some clues.....
I for one had missed your posts recently and shared insights.
Best wishes, Chris,
'living alongside'
sunny (but not dazzling) UK
Thank-you for your kind words, Chris. Yes , the light sensitivity was discovered by a neurologist a few years ago. Last year I was part of a study led by a leading researcher in the field.. It was exciting, and I travelled to the mainland from here about nine or ten times (expenses paid , of course ! ) to be the only patient in the study.
Anyway, when it was over, the neuroscientist was going to write a great big paper about me or something ! England must be nice. I live in Nanaimo. British Columbia, Canada That's on the west coast. A beautiful island. And a resort town.
So I refuse to complain about anything on this site.!
Take care
Don