Back in Action

Howdy folks!     Well as my title would suggest, I'm back.     I had a bit of a breakdown.

Because my visual hallucinations are triggered by light, the long summer here on the west-coast took it's toll on me and I had a pretty rough time.

At first I didn't notice notice it, you know , just some strange pattern in the trees or something, but after a while I was into a full blown psychosis and had to be hospitalized.

I was only on the ward for 2 weeks.           I was lucky.         As I got older. the illness was more treatable and I stabilized quickly.    It was tough.       It's difficult to describe the fear that accompanies visual hallucinations, or at least, the dark ones that I have.

My problem is that I attach names and delusional explanations to the halluc

Now I've got to learn to ignore them all over again.

I have already made some progress.     I have PRN's of Seraquel to take and they seem to be effective.         But it's like I have to to start all over again with something that took me ten years to accomlish.

Wish me kuck !

Don Fraser