Hello WawingStain,
Stress can cause a psychotic episode. I was diagnosed with SZ after I had a breakdown when my beloved Grandpa was in a coma, hooked up to a respirator in the intensive care unit. My parents never understood me when I was growing up and they did everything wrong except when I had my break my mother drove me to the hospital within 24 hours so I got the right treatment right away.
If you read my profile, you will see I'm a librarian and have SZ and I choose to be open and honest about my medical condition to the people who would benefit from hearing my story. You, however, do not have to disclose and that is your right. My latest SharePost here touched on the self-stigma that often plagues people who are diagnosed with SZ or fear they have SZ.
One thing it will help for you to remember is that you are a person first with traits and quirks and a personality all your own. You are not your illness. Other psychiatrists and professionals have SZ and bipolar and they have successful careers, too.
Maybe you need a vacation if you are facing burn-out from your job. It is also possible the paranoia could've been a side effect of any medication you took, yet even if it wasn't, acceptance is the key to living with any mental illness.
Think of this as a red flag: that possibly something isn't working in your life and you're being asked to make changes to support your mental health. It could be exercise at the gym, running in the park, cooking good meals, clearing one day a week to do absolutely nothing except watch a video at home or listen to music, joining a support group, therapy or anything else that would bring you better peace of mind.
Work with your your doctors on your treatment and remember not to give up because there is hope you can maintain a good life.
A variant of SZ, schizoaffective, is the combination of schizophrenia and a mood disorder. Any number of things could be at play in your life. So the best thing I can tell you is to be proactive in working your recovery from whatever is going on.
Please I would refrain if I were you from buying into the stigma about the diagnosis of SZ. Even attorneys have schizophrenia, like Elyn Saks, who wrote the book The Center Cannot Hold: My Journey Through Madness.
So there is hope for you and for everyone going through a hard time.
I wish you the best.
Regards,
Christina