I think I have a traumatic since I can't forget it until now.
In 1999 I was tied like a psycho patient inside a hospital for drug treatment. I was wondering why would I experience that. Am I really crazy?
In 2000 I got work and my boss said that I am crazy as I said that there was a client ordered goods but apparently not to my boss. A minute later, the client called again to order. It was then my boss stopped saying that I was crazy.
I began to hate why people said that I am crazy.
In 2003 my friend wondered about me and ask my teacher. She told her that he was crazy indeed.
In 2006 my lecture stated that he could even hear what I thought when I was sleeping. Huh? Is that true? When I got more stress, soon I began to wonder about myself whether I am crazy or not so.
I got more sensitive when people use the word "crazy" as I thought they were talking about me actually not. Now I can't stop wondering myself about it. I think that people bother me or hate me because I am crazy. So I ask them: Am I crazy? None of them answered it until now. I am losing my mind. I can;t think straight anymore. This kind of thinking keep bothering me but I can;t stop it as I am too stress maybe.
Please someone help me! I don;t want to drink medicine! I know the only answer is to find what make me happy and go for it. But I can;t stop my mind to wonder about myself. So sometimes I speak by myself and when I hear an unknown sound/voice I always ask: "Am I Crazy?" I always keep asking this question inside my mind until a few people realize that I am speaking like that. Then people begin to think I am crazy. How to stop it? I can;t do anything.