Hello.  I read what you wrote and am writing to let you know that I sympathize with you and have the same problem you do with having no job, never being married, I'm over 30 and never married, and failed at many things too in life, so don't feel bad.  As far as the voices, just don't be afraid of them.  The best advice I can give you is to accept yourself for the way you are, and talk to those voices if it helps,  the other advice I would give you is to not live believing you have to live under a certain label that society fixes on you, instead, think about living without feeling you are, because in reality you are not a label, you are a human with understandable symptoms.  For some it is easy to understand and for others we have to search for those reasons.  Most importantly is that I hope that when you meet those who are kind to you that you remember them, because they are what makes the world better, and even more importantly, live your life happy.  We all have one commonality in society and that is the want of our own happiness.  Happiness doesn't come from others though, instead it comes from ourselves, so I hope you find something or things that make you happy and you live for it or those things, and never give up on yourself.  A handicap doesn't have to be a handicap mentally.  It just means we are unique and therefore need our treat ourself with the upmost care.  You are not a failure.  Those who are do not have your illness and quit trying anything.  A friend, Lisa