Hi becky, I feel just the same way as you do. I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia because of something they call a delusion. To me it was not a delusion, it was a real experience. Mine has got to do with religion and I'm not gonna go too far into that because no one would believe me anyway. I believe I had a special experience with God and because I told the people closest to me, they immediately thought there was something wrong with me. So now I have been having a battle with the doctors for three long years because of what I believe in. They say I have a lack of insight because I do not believe it is a delusion and they just keep adjusting the dose higher or prescribing other meds. Which to me it is all poison and does not alter the way I think at all. I am adamant that what I saw and heard that specific night was not a hallucination of any type. So you can say that this is a persecution for believing in God (which drs are not supposed to believe in) and if I have to suffer with doctors tormenting me all my life for this belief then amen. I will never deny my experience with God because I know He is listening. All I have to say to you is: your not suffering with schizophrenia. You are not a nut at all. I believe spirits are more real than God and I really believe in God now after the experience. Though to be diagnosed with sz you must have more symtoms than just seeing things surely. But me I do not hear voices, see things that are not there, disorganised speech or disorganised behaviour or anything else assosiated with sz, except for this suppose of "delusion". And if you are the same as me well I'm with you all the way. Plus once your admitted as a schizophrenic patient, you may have to stay on meds for the rest of your life. I believe drs are in some way working together, diagnosing people wrongly so that they can always ensure jobs for each other. Lets face it, more patients more jobs and more money. Doctors do not really want you to get better, just stable. Especially them mental health ones. So be careful and good luck with your future.