Alright, so I am in a psychology class right now and it has kind of opened my eyes.
So the deal with me is:
I have delusions that I am aware of but STILL think of that everything I do is being broadcasted for an entire different world to see, and that I am an experiment and all those around me are actors. (Basically like The Truman Show with Jim Carey, if you've ever seen it)
Sometimes I think they can hear whats going on inside my head too.
I am only 16 but for the last couple years I hear "voices."
It is not very often, but when it happens I become incredibly fearful and always try to push the thoughts away. I have never really "listened" so I have no idea what they're saying...
Like I mentioned before, my psychology class made me notice these things, because before I didn't think of them as a big deal in the least.
Today I found out after asking my adoptive mom why my biological mom had been admitted to a mental institution before, she told me she was diagnosed with schizophrenia. Unfortunately, all she really knows is that it made her really scared (maybe voices?) and she is on medicine.
After doing research online, I found information from the DSM-IV and found that I fit a lot of the symptoms. (I'll list them at the bottom of this, but I don't want you to have to read more then you want to)
I don't know what this means, and MY MAIN QUESTION IS:
If I do in fact have schizophrenia, will it get worse as I get older?
Right now, I don't notice it affecting other people's lives, and I am of no danger to anybody.
But I am afriad it will get worse.
If it is not affecting others, should I tell anybody?
Symptoms I have:
--Staring, while in deep thought, with infrequent blinking.
--Clumsy, inexact motor skills
--Sleep disturbances- insomnia or excessive sleeping
--Involuntary movements of the tongue or mouth (facial dyskinesias). Grimacing at the corners of the mouth with the facial muscles, or odd movements with the tongue.
--Parkinsonian type symptoms- rigidity, tremor, jerking arm movements, or involuntary movements of the limbs
--An awkward gait (how you walk)
--Unusual gestures or postures
--The inability to experience joy or pleasure from activities (called anhedonia)
--Feeling indifferent to important events
--Hypersensitivity to criticism, insults, or hurt feelings
--Sudden irritability, anger, hostility, suspiciousness, resentment
--Inability to form or keep relationships
--Social isolation- few close friends if any. Little interaction outside of immediate family.
--Increased withdrawal, spending most of the days alone.
--Becoming lost in thoughts and not wanting to be disturbed with human contact
--Replaying or rehearsing conversations out loud- i.e. talking to yourself
--Making up new words (neologisms)
--Becoming incoherent or stringing unrelated words together (word salad)
--Frequent loose association of thoughts or speech- when one thought does not logically relate to the next
--In conversation you tend to say very little (called poverty of speech or alogia)
--Suddenly halting speech in the middle of a sentence (thought blocking)
--Difficulty expressing thoughts verbally. Or not having much to say about anything.
--Poor concentration/ memory. Forgetfulness
--Difficulty understanding simple things
--Obsessive compulsive tendencies- with thoughts or actions
--Thinking that your thoughts are being broadcast over the radio or tv