hello this is my first time on here i was wondering some things first i am 16 i have been having mild thoughts of killing my self and other people for a few years. over the past year or two they have been getting worse and more extreme a few months ago my sister had pet rats that she wanted to get rid of so i killed them and i extremly enjoyed doing it i cant really go to a doctor about this cause im affraid to talk to any one about this. also i have these ticks where my body flinches and i through my head back this is starting to happen more offten. also i have diffrent mood changes some days i will be happy other days i just want to end my life because every day is exactly the same as the one before i am alright in school but i thought my work will be out side of school one day. i am intreged by serial killers and all that so could some one help me out with these problems and when thank you?
Q: hello im wondering if there is some thing wrong like schizophrenia with me?
Hello losser442,
This is Christina weighing in.
Go immediately to a professional. Contact the local psychiatric hospital for a referral to a doctor in your area. You are putting yourself and the health of others at risk if you don't get immediate treatment. The doctor might admit you to the psych ward, that is a possibility and in your situation, that could be helpful.
The sooner you get treatment, the better. People who have schizophrenia can often lead full, productive lives after being diagnosed and treated, so get the help you need and deserve right now.
The idea that you killed a pet rat, rather than take it to a local animal shelter or release it into the wild, disturbs me.
Please seek help. I want only the best for you.
In fact, I would suggest you sign yourself voluntarily into a hospital if the doctor or other professional recommends you do so. I have been hospitalized twice, and do well now.
Take care,
Christina
Hello Losser,
So glad you found us! Welcome.
Yes, please do seek urgent help. I am sure someone (probably Christina) will soon post how to go about it practically and make the initial contact with the professionals.
If you can, confide in someone you trust and ask them to accompany you to the docs or on call psychiatric support team.It will make all the difference.
It is very good you have come to this site which exists to help people troubled by thoughts and feelings that would seem 'out of the ordinary'. You are not alone, though you may feel very isolated.
I hope this is the first brave step for you in getting in touch with professionals who can help you. They will recognise what you are going through and have been going through, and get you some urgent relief, so that once again you can start to feel life is for living.They will also give you a thorough medical check up.
There are some very good new meds that can really help. They help the brain move on normal pathways, instead of repeatedly tracking down distressing loops. It is allreally a fine balance, a bit like when a radio station is a fraction out of tune, every thing is crackly and painfully distorted with a lot of 'static' a bit like your over sensitvie twitches.
Please go ahead and don't delay, early treatment is linked with good outcome, as well as earlier relief of your distress.Don't be discouraged. Be heard.
Good luck,
Chris,
retired doc (non psych)
UK
PS You could take a copy of your post for the doctor to read perhaps?. You have expressed your situation so clearly it could be very helpful for them. I know I would have found it helpful.
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