Dear Ms.Howard, I'm sorry your having a rough go of it. I too have tried many meds. I find journaling helps me. I keep fairly busy. Don't despair, you may find the right med or a combo of meds that will work. There's hope. I believe that. Work with your pdoc. Above all else don't give up looking for answers. "if there's no seek, there's is no do."
Take care,
Dave