Hello Karen ,
Sorry to hear you feel some strong warning signs of relapse,
and so glad you have posted again. That has to be good.
Try not to feel hopeless and build up your coping skills. I can tell you are a strong person and your qualities will see you through. Don't believe you have 'run out' of meds. Please check that side with your pdoc as soon as you can.
I note your mention of stressful triggers just now. It seems perhaps 'they are all coming together' at the same time, no wonder you feel low and anxious:-of course that is just when the voices get active.
Karen ,I went back to read your shareposts from the beginning ,and see like many others here, and myself , you find the fall and its occasions leading up to Chrismas stressful.
But you did get through them ,remember that, and take courage. This too will pass.
Perhaps you could manage another share post?? (However brief).
I have noticed the response there is often totally different in flavour from the briefer 'ask' responses and often give great comfort.
I would look out for your post.
How is your daughter(s) doing. Another school year on!
Best wishes
Chris
UK