When I am tired and doing nothing, just laying in bed, thoughts pop into my head about things I think are real. I worry about what I did when I was sick. I know I made phonecalls to people in my delusions and I am not sure what I said. The other night I thought of a friend from school, thinking I rang her. I know I could not have now. I don't even have her number and don't even know where she lives. I have seen her since then and all was ok. Even thinking of it now it seems so real and I replay the conversation I am sure never happened. I have been taking my meds and don't know why I do this. Other events happen to with people that I am not sure took place. I am really concerned as it seems so real.





