My negative symptoms feel almost feverish. This is intolerable for me and I simply cannot take it anymore. I mean I sometimes question whether I actually have schizophrenia or some other disease because when I wake up I feel like I have a fever with no energy what so ever. Words can't describe the suckiness of this feeling!
a quick recap into my previous symptoms. I used to have severe positive symptoms with paranoia that the gov or some faction of it was trying to torture me with electromagnetic weapons. I thought President Bush, at one point, was killing Jews with some secret weapon. It was crazy I kept looking in the papers headlines to see a mention of "thousands of Jews killed," etc!
I thought all these poltiicians like Bill Clinton and celebs like Tom Cruise were in on a huge conspiracy to torture and kill people; it was crazy. So yeah I also heard so many voices talking to me, I had thought insertion, thought people on tv were giving me signals and even could hear people's inner thoughts, or so I thought at one point.
Now I don't harbor any delusions and don't really hear any persecutory voices anymore, just some stupid random voices of my high school friends picking on each other. Really stupid and silly stuff.
But the negative symptoms and the cognitive impairment has grown absolutely horrific and is keeping me from working or doing much of anything.
So let me ask you; is it normal to have such horrible negative symptoms? Is there anything that can be done about it? Help me obi won you're my only hope!
Hello Christina,
Always thankyou for your timely and always thoughtful replies. This is getting ridiculous as I've been sleeping all day for ten hours or more and I can't seem to fall asleep at night, even when I stay up all day forcing myself. I have no idea why this is, the body is just such a mystery as to why it does the things it does!
So I'm getting my Risperdal shot this Tuesday, but my dad might have to bring me in as it's 45 min away in Boston. I chose the Freedom Trail Clinic because it's one of the best but now I'm thinking perhaps I should stay local as it would be much easier on me. I just want an open minded doctor that will try out anything that could stand a chance at working.
yeah I thought I was beating these neg symptoms for a while and now frustratingly enough they have come back to haunt and torture me! I can't do anything to reemphasize this again. I can't even leave the couch. This is certainly no way to live, and it makes me very angry that people aren't making health care and mental health a first priority. Well I think diseases that cause death should be first priority than debilitating stuff like SZ. Is there anything I can do to get Congress to allocate more money to SZ research?