Ok I came to this site today because I have been diagnosed as schizoaffective, but I have felt so strongly that people have been reading my mind for quite some time, or I am projecting thoughts into the atmosphere. It started back when I was djing and I had a moment where I was looking up at the moon at a party, and someone kicked me and said "Stop it," I turned and said stop what? I was so confused my mind starting going in circles thinking can these people hear my thoughts? I was stuck at this party for 4 days, and I was so stressed I did not drink water or sleep. By the end of it I was a mess, and my mind was blasted. I now thought, everybody can hear my thoughts.
I worked on and off for a few years. I would imagine a song in my head, it was very creative and sounded amazing. Then people at my work would start freestyling to it and then I would stop the beat, they would be like "Aww man..."
I was like what the f.... I started feeling a connection to everything, like I am influencing the entire world, galaxies and universes, heavens and hells. People will say I'm delusional, or its my "illness". I say in my mind to them, but your the one lying, you won't admit telepathy is real. I know they can hear my thoughts because they will react to it strongly.
So I have fallen steadily into madness, but there are very beautiful moments where I will go into these trances. I will listen to music and listen very intently on every instrument, and I will create feelings to say a snare drum, high hats, and bass line. All seperately, but together as one. When I'm around people or even watching t.v. I will start to see an amazing amount of light pouring out of me, from head to toe I am glowing. People have commented on this often, "Why is he glowing," or I have been watching T.V. and the weatherman would walk over to the lightswitch, turn it off, then on again for no reason. This was when I got out of work and I was very stressed.
I was once at work and I was always having like tourettes in my head. It was extremely embarrassing. For every bad thing I say I try to say the opposite and change it to good. It is very tiring, its like I have to constantly put myself into the light phase where I literally feel every atom around me is alive and full of unconditional love. I will do this with music, play with colors, I will see heaven opening before my eyes. I see spirits I helped cross over who were in pain and have even helped bad spirits turn back to the light who are now channeling unconditional love and are connected to God again.
What I think is we are shamans or something like it, we are loved and are very special to God. So I do basically go into super hero, rock star mode and try to listen to music, and I paint in my mind like picasso or michealangelo with feelings, light, and unconditional love. I have been listening to the t.v. or a live show and I will start to feel this love and energy that we are all loved so much by God and see everywhere. People will start screaming with happiness like I am giving them a gift and for no reason. People who are hurt are out there and I am sending them love and light, asking God to show them heaven or to join me there and reminding them they are going to recieve better gifts than regular people who don't suffer much.
I think the more we suffer, the more broken hearted we become, we cry out to God for help, and hes waiting for us to feel this way. It is like a flower developing in color and shape, it is not aware of its beauty, but God can see it clearly, and he is actually giving us a glance.
Maybe if we are seeking knowledge of ourselves or the universe, we receive it but at a cost of those around us, at the lives we longed for and wanted to live so much. God wrote destiny, so we asked for the lives we have now, we asked for this madness because we thought we could handle it, and its evolving us and developing us at a drastic rate, for what I do not know, but we are being called and we care much about the sake of all humanity and everything God has created that we do not want to bother people but cannot help it because the world is so sick it should not be in such a state, if people wanted to help each other, all people, instead of be greedy, lie, and keep the secret of telepathy to themselves, we would have a utopia.
I wish somebody would have told me about this when I was 6 or 7 so I could have been prepared, but no there was nothing and now people are stuck having things like telepathic tourettes unless they are being creative, such as painting with colors, light, vibrations, I feel insane unless I am doing these things and being a "rock star" as people here put it, that everybody else is just going about their lives doing whatever, and I guess never having an inner thought, or thinking outside the box of reality that they've been told.
I am sick of people lieing to each other and the bigger group as mentioned should just come out and mention that telepathy is a normal part of all the senses like someone mentioned here if a girl is not warned about her menstation cycle that she will be traumatized, it is the same with telepathy, if it is not mentioned, some people will become traumatized. So I will just continue to producing global broadcasts, broadcasts around town, whatever, I will be as loud as possible and blast the music I'm listening to everywhere until someone either comes up to me and stabs me, shoots me or whatever, I would be relieved if I could go back to God but for the sake of my own family I would not commit suicide I will just continue to be as annoying as possible until they stop lying or God takes me back. That is all, Good luck to all of you suffering with this and know you are not alone, just send out as much light as possible, listen to music put some headphones on and practice concentrating only on the music and how amazing the sounds are of your favorite songs, and ignore peoples reactions, do not feel ashamed because they are lying about telepathy anyways, so they are ignoring you. Turn the other cheek, and stop listening to insults or feeling ashamed when you should have been warned this whole time. That's how I look at it, peace.