I recommend you read about orthomolecular pschiatry. It invloves the use of vitamin supplements and niacin (the vitamin B3). It was founded by the psychiatrist Dr. Michael Lesser who is still in practice in the San Francisco bay area. Dr. Lesser has even made speeches to the US congress about his work. He got his degree from Cornell University. He even wrote a book called "The Brain Chemistry Diet" where you can learn about your brain personality and find out what foods you should eat and what specialty vitamin supplements you can take depending on your brains personality type. If you dont like your medications this diet and vitamin therapy specialized to your case will even completely get rid of your need for debilitating drugs that a lot of people say you will need for the rest of your life. Dont believe that bullshit. You dont need those bogus medications (drugs) at all with the help of orthomolecular pschiatric vitamin medicine. I hope you read into this field of psychiatry because it sounds like you could use it.