My wife's mother was finally diagnosed schizophrenic in her 60's. As she was raised by her mother, she saw her mom go through many Jekyl & Hyde moments. Now, 8 years ago in our marraige, my wife was diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic. We had wanted for years to have children. However, totally different reasons prevented her pregnancies. We have only had one miscarraige. For years, we were mad at God that we didn't have kids. Then for years, we were mad at God for taking away our only child.
Now, we can finally rejoice that our baby is waiting for us in Heaven.
Obviously, each person's situation is different.
One new complication that I am experiencing as the husband in this marriage, is a non-existent sex drive in my wife for the last 3 years since she has been taking Geodon. She wants to be cared for, provided for and hugged. Then stop. and repeat.
Please do enjoy activities with friends that you trust and look for a man that can respect your situation. Trust me, he will have his own situation that needs your caring to help him grow past his drama.
Please seek God's wisdom about His giving you children. God knows what you will be able to handle in your future. No person knows what our future strengths and weaknesses will be. God does. My wife and I now rejoice that we have our 2 cats and no children. We are resting in God's provision for the right direction that He knew all along that we could best handle.
I am being candid about our situation. Hopefully, this helps.