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  Mr.Berryessa, I believe I've always had schizophrenia. I also believe it manifested into full blown psychosis because of pot. I started smoking pot at age 13 because my "friends" were all doing it. We smoked before school, at lunch, sometimes between classes and at night. It seemed like I was high all the time. Then one night while out partying I had my first hallucination-voices.     The last time I got high was 23 years ago. I hope I never forget that day. Some people I knew turned me on to some weed. Almost immediately my paranoia increased ten fold. The voices were loud as hell. I left the party and was yelling at the top of my lungs as I walked down the city streets.     The reason I say I don't want to forget that day is because it's a reminder of how damaging marijuana is. I still hear voices to this day. I hear em as I write this.     I believe smoking pot or any illegal drug is dangerous. I'm paying the price for being stupid, for the rest of my life. They used to say drugs kill. They do. A part of me died because of drugs. I paid the price, now I have to live my life out the best I can inspite of my illness. Some days it's hard as hell, I'm able to maintain a fairly "normal" life. But any day without drugs and alcohol is a day worth living.