I've been going through some sex forums to see if anyone dealt with my problem. On another I found the following question but the poster got NO responses. I don't know who this guy is, but I swear I could have written this myself. What he says describes me and expresses everything about my fears (except I'm 6' even not 6' 2" like him):
"I am in my 50's and have a small penis. Its about 2" soft and 4" hard. It has affected me psychologically from being quite young. At school I hated showers. Nowadays I cannot use public urinals, hate being in swimming trunks and changing rooms. I feel inadequate and inferior to other men. I have no self confidence with women. I feel people will somehow 'know' just by looking at me. I never felt comfortable at work in meetings and also suffer from bad blushing.
I still feel as bad and when anyone tells me 'its not what you've got its what you do with it' I hate it - no help at all - what do you expect me to say "oh thats OK I'm OK then?!"
"Thing is I'm quite normal - I love women and sex. I have always wondered if there were women out there who 'prefer' smaller guys (though I am 6ft 2" by the way!). All the personal ads and porn indicates women like 'big' guys. Everything I see on the net and in changing rooms reminds me how small I am and I hate it. Though I do my best to cover my inadequacy and outwardly appear happy and normal. There is no surgery or treatment I just wondered if anyone suffered like me and if any women could ever be really turned on by a guy like me."
I mean what's wrong with me (and him)? At least there's one other guy my age who feels that same way I do. I'm terrified that I'm going to be laughed at and be nothing but a laughing stock. Just this morning I heard some woman interviewed on a radio show saying that she found out some guy she was dealing with had a small penis she would just laugh and tell him to leave. I would rather be the biggest jerk in the world with a big penis then sone nice guy with a small one.