I found you on the internet this morning.  I had surgery last week and I wanted to hear from someone who had gone through surgery and someone I could relate to and share my feelings about this surgery.  It was a shock to my life and sometimes I feel like no one really understands what its like.  Sitting up in the room and waiting for someone to come tell you they need to take more of your nose off and being the last one there.  I went by myself and had my boyfriend come back and pick me up.  I know he was trying to be supportive but the look on his face and the tear on his check said the whole picture.  When they gave me the mirror I thought I would throw up.  I am greatful that it is over for now but future reacurances scare me.  I had already had surgery in 2004 that the doctor did not get it all and really made a mess of it.  Then to top it off my sister called last night to tell me that my mother had died of the same cancer thirty years ago.  I had always ask what type of cancer she had died from and they said it was her smoking.  I know she meant well and after 2004 didn't want me upset.  I forgive her but it was still a shock.  I know your post has been a while but if you get this post please E-mail me.  I would love to have someone to talk to...                 Myiababie4@aol.com