I'm drowning...... everyday i'm sinking deeper and deeper into the abyss of depression.
Guilt and shame, hopelessness and helplessness run through my mind like clockwork...
...Was there a time when you look at the mirror, and you see somebody else staring back at you?... and you felt disgusted at what you're seeing?
...was there a time, when you feel like you're alive, but you're not "Living"?, it's as if you're soul is hovering above your body, a ghost wandering about aimlessly
All you want is to be alone and left alone....
......well, that's what i feel like...
I have been struggling with ACNE breakouts for a year now.....
i have tried many products and there aren't any improvements on my skin... heck i even tried that proactiv stuff and it made my skin worse.
...... i don't go out of my house....... i can't find a job.... i don't talk to my friends, i don't talk to anybody about my acne condition coz i'm scared! i'm scared that they would judge me and it will hurt...and i'm already hurting inside so i don't need someone else to bug me about it.....
......i've been crying a lot lately... and i've been depressed (when my mom died 6yrs ago), but now that i'm having this acne problem, i feel like this wave of depression is much greater and that i can't talk to her about it.....
.....i'm still searching for the right products to help me with this problem...........
Hey Margox
As I have written previously...I do understand the emotional pain that acne can cause. Here is a post you may want to read about dealing with depression and a chronic skin condition.
We have some other resources to help including:
Acne Treatment
Get Rid of Your Acne This Year
A Dermatologist Answers Your Questions about Acne Scars
I am wondering if you have ever gotten some grief counseling for dealing with the death of your mother? This is a lot to deal with on your own. How about for your depression? Do you have a therapist?
I can tell you from my personal experience that it can get better. Depression and acne seem to go together for many people. But once you get some control of one or the other...it has a domino effect. You are doing the right things to see a dermatologist for your skin. I think once you are given the right treatment to reduce your break-outs...you will feel a whole lot better knowing that something can work.
Hang in there. Any time you wish to write here or on our other sites...we want to hear from you!
Thank you for writing these shareposts and sharing your story.