I have had problems sleeping in the past, but they could always be solved by being forced to go a night without sleep.  After a night without sleep, I could normally sleep for the next 14+ hours.  I have started drinking a lot lately to cure my insomnia, but that no longer works.  I started taking diphenhydramine hydrochloride (Benadryl AKA Simply Sleep) in addition to the alcohol to get me to sleep, but that no longer works either.  Now, I take the Benadryl, alcohol, and doxylamine succinate (Unisom sleep tablets).  The three are usually succesful, but if my mind is determined, it can stay up past all three.

What I don't get is that last night (due to forces outside my ability to control), I got zero hours of sleep.  At around 930 AM, I got the chance to take a quick nap... 55 min if I was able to fall straight to sleep, but I stared at the wall for over 35 of them, and when I was roused from sleep, I felt wide awake... I'm still not sure if I actually ever fell asleep.  The next chance I got was around 5:30 pm.  It took me over 1.5 hours to fall asleep, but something (something that would normally be insignifacant to me (I'm normally a VERY heavy sleeper)) woke me up.

So... as I write this, I'm working off less than 1 hr sleep, and I am now working on the third of my 32 oz Colt-45's.  I have not taken either of the sleeping pills yet, but I don't think that it's normal to have to do that much to fall asleep. 

In my experience, no matter what drugs you inject into your system, nothing will put you to sleep better than sleep deprivation... So why am I still wide-awake?

Just so you know... there are some MAJOR girlfriend issues that I'm dealing with right now.  I was suicidal about them, but I haven't been that way in over three months.... On the other hand, I still think about her every day, and I dream about her 1-2 a week (which is 1-2 a week more than I even did when we were dating (more like once every 1-2 months)).

Since she no longer consumes my every thought (although I do still think of her a lot), shouldn't I be able to get a night's sleep after all this medication and sleep deprivation?

ty all for reading it all...

Allen