the fear, no make that terror of relapsing sent me back to chantix. I took the pills for 4 months and then decided that i was already on enough medication. That was 2 months ago. And I was o.k. For about a month. Then I thought I was losing my mind. The craving came back full force. I became convinced that I couldn't make it; I felt like I was losing my mind. I actually pictured myself smoking a stray butt. I had quit cold turkey (in a hospital) and was almost convinced that all i needed to do was smoke a cigarette, just one and then feel like, i don't know, i was saying good by for real. So I called my cardiologist and rheumatologist. They agreed that going back on chantix was alright; better by far than smoking. So I went back on the pills 5 days ago. And wonder of wonders...I'm ....relieved. The cravings have backed off. I feel like I've gotten a second chance. I'll try again to go it alone. I'm not repping pharmaceuticals, but for me, this pill is my best chance.
