The last couple of weeks have been going well. My tumor marker is down to under 5 right now and I am closing in on beating this every day. I have been living life to the best of my ability, still going out, still lifting, still pushing through the pain as much as I can take. My doctor thinks I am a little twitched in the head, most of my friends think I am plain crazy, but my fight every day is to not let cancer dictate my life any more than it can. I have to go to chemo and everything else. I do have symptoms-including the new skin color one which caused me a trip to the hospital- but I make it a point to not let it bother me more than it needs to. I do not always succeed, but if you do not reach your goals, you have to refocus, find out where you went wrong, and try again.
I think that last comment may be heplful to some of you reading this post. Failure hurts, it is not what we want, but if you learn from it, it becomes not a failure but a learning experience. When asked about inventing the lightbulb and ultimately failing over 3,000 times, Thomas Edison said, "I just succeeded in finding 3,000 ways of how to not make a lightbulb." He was not phased but rather he learned from his experience and became a better inventor.
So, when you experience those cravings, the withdrawl, the depression, and everything else, keep to it, one more day may get you over that hump. If you succumb, do not think of it as giving up or failing, rather go back to the drawing board, search for that strength within your soul and devise a better plan to accomplish your ultimate goal.
I have faith that every person reading this with a desire to quit will make it if they truly want to. It may not be the first time, may not be the seventh time, but if you keep your chin up and keep fighting and keep trying, you will ultimately succeed.
I never smoked in my life and I have a hard time knowing what you are going through, but I do understand what it is like to fall short of very important goals, and I do understand the sacrifice and the fight. I promise you.
That is about all I really have to say for this week. Keep fighting to better yourself every day.
Sincerely,
Adam Frey
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